Friday, November 1, 2024

     I am tired of carrying my cell phone around waiting for the doctor’s call.  His assistant said he would call several days ago. So this morning I sent a note to the assistant to tell him I reluctantly agree to the change in plan. There is satisfaction in sending a response rather than waiting for that phone call. Being a visible human patient is challenging.

     During rest time on the couch, I feel like a small child.  Decisions are being made about me in a medical language I hardly understand.  I feel voiceless. I want to be consulted. I want to be visible.

     I haven’t seen a single Halloween costume all day, not on the insta cart shopper or the half dozen construction workers across the street. I get to eat all the Halloween candy.

      Are there interesting TV shows?  I watch LINCOLN LAWYER episode last night, so boring.  I think it is me.  I love to read books but my eyes get tired and evening TV is a way to live in these dark nights. I make popcorn for my visiting daughter.