Tuesday, July 21, 2026

     This morning, I have a short conversation with my roommate where neither of us really hear what the other is saying. Sometimes, I yell to her from the kitchen, I can’t hear you, when she is talking from the living room. I have good hearing but both of us are a little off. I hear best when we are in the same room and can look at each other. Yes of course I should get my hearing checked.  Really, I just need my ears cleaned.

     I have three sets of exercises I plan to do each day. Usually, I do one and maybe two. Monday, I did two, walking on the deck and sitting in the front garden doing my chair yoga exercises.

     Storm clouds in the sky this morning. We are on the edge of a southern hurricane. Birds flutter in the bushes.  A stillness settles on us as the clouds hold steady high above us. Sunflower plants keep growing taller. No flowers yet.

     We continue to watch season two of HIJACK, an intense compelling thriller. Suddenly subways feel really dangerous. Season one was about airplane flights being dangerous. Another creepy show I watch is season one of GRACE, a detective show. These shows are not as creepy as our violent president’s war and corruption.

 

Monday, July 20, 2026

     On the deck, outside in the fog with my nail clippers. Suddenly I am too warm. The sun appears and my winter clothes are uncomfortable. I quickly cut both my toe nails and finger nails, and then rush back into the cooler house.

     The green sunflowers plants are growing higher than the fence but still no flowers. The tomato plants are on the verge of flooding the neighborhood with tomatoes. And the gophers, what are they up to today.

     I am influenced by Paul Aster’s book THE NEW YORK TRILOGY which explores the misuse of words. Last night when I can’t fall asleep, I wonder if I have outlived my name.  Kathy is a young person’s name, maybe it is time to find a better name.  I go through a long list of names, none of which work. So, I will stick with the name I have. I do like the names of weather conditions, storm, fog, sunshine, wind, stars, moon, sky.

    I watch the first episode of Britbox’s detective series called GRACE. Such a chilling story of a live man trapped in a coffin. Gives me the chills. I will probably continue to watch the series but earlier in the evening. And the old crazy president has not been impeached yet.  I am hopeful, as the judges turn against his crazy criminal actions.

 

Sunday, July 19, 2026

     I am envious of my roommate new mattress topper. She opens the extra large cardboard box and a fluffy bed topper spreads out on the living room floor. This morning, she walks by my room with a thumbs up. The topper is on her bed.  I plan to check it out today. Maybe take a nap on it.

     Actually, I am envious of people who are strong and healthy. When this green demon envy arises, I pay attention to my actual life, to not let the demon get out of control. I am alive and have a good life. I am actually satisfied with my life.

     Foggy Sunday morning. Quiet house. No dog barking this morning. A gray stillness in the air. I read a NYTimes review of Ross McElwee’s documentary films and remember his 1986 film SHERMAN’S MARCH was surprisingly great.  I’ve put it on my list of films to see again. And will check out his newer films.

     Last night we begin to watch the older series THE LAST SHIP, five seasons long. Interesting enough but not great. I also finish watching season one of I, JACK WRIGHT. a satisfying murder story. I start reading THE NEW YORK TRILOGY by Paul Auster. An intriguing book. Nothing new about our demented president. Same old lies and fears. War, corruption, murders in the streets. And our brave people are protesting and fighting back.