Tuesday, June 30, 2026

     My personal librarian brings a stack of books to the house in the late afternoon. The books continue to pile up in the living room. Since I mostly stay home my experiences of community life is from books and TV.  So sad. I miss being out and about.

    I am only restless when I think I should be having a different life. Actually I love my life here at home.  I am never bored. But sometimes memories come up of a former life and I become restless. Well, my body isn’t restless, just my imaginative mind that creates images and thoughts. My consciousness, what ever that is. Hard to understand how my brain actually works. I fall into wondering who am I and what is my purpose in life. The dreaded rabbit hole.

     I am just about finished reading John Sandford’s new novel, REVERSE PREY.  I am pretty tired of the story and am considering just reading the last page and putting the book in the return pile. Garbage day.  My roommate pulls the bins to the street for Tuesday morning pick up.

     In the early evening, we watch two episodes of SUGAR.  Since the living room is still light the dark scenes in the show are hard to see. And the series is getting crazier and stranger. A friend comes by and we watch some of my favorite movie, SHEEP DETECTIVES.

 

Monday, June 29, 2026

     Early morning, the blue jay is working the bottle bush tree.  In the distance the cooing of two mourning doves. Foggy gray sky, a chill in the air. I used to be ready to get up early in the morning to start my day but now I want to just stay under the covers and sleep a bit more. 10 hours of bedtime is not enough I tell myself.  Get up.

     I finally finish season two of YOUR FRIENDS AND NEIGHBORS. I watch the last couple of episodes in one day. I love, hate, this show and I am glad it is over. My prejudices of wealthy people is encouraged. However, I am fond of the characters and in the end wished them well. I may be wasting my days by watching these kinds of shows.

     I have been feeling lazy or maybe weak the last couple of weeks. I am researching what to take to increase my energy. My blood test says I am fine. The doctor recommends vitamin D. Facebook has lots of recommendations for me. Maybe I am just feeling my age.

     I am now reading a fast moving novel by John Sandford, REVENGE PREY.  He has published dozens of similar books, full of action and clever brave people. A tonic to my present state and the bedlam of our country today. The Sunday Times book review is full of appealing books. Today I am sticking with John Sandford.

 

Sunday, June 28, 2026

     I remember 20 years ago standing at a train station in Long Island, New York, looking at a complicated map to determine the right train to take to the airport. My suitcase next to me. A middle aged man asks which train goes to the airport. I point to the train nearby. We both walk to the train and he gets on.  I hesitate and realize it is the wrong train. This happens too fast and I am unable to find the guy to correct the information, He thought I knew the way and I didn’t.

     My older sister says, she keeps asking people for directions or recommendations, until she finds two people who agreed. So easy to receive the wrong information.  

     I finish reading Solvej Balle’s novel ON THE CALCULATION OF VOLUME. Such a strange puzzling book and I love it.

     In the evening, we watch SUGAR, a strange detective story on Apple TV. I spend the day doing minor chores and napping. My roommate is out involved in the community. If I had the energy I too would be out and about. sigh. So much of my life is memories now.