Wednesday, May 21, 2025

     I talk to friends and family calmly as if I know what I am saying.  Yes, I am on top it. It is just medical stuff. But then I am surprised when the actual pathology report shows up on My Chart and I am struck dumb. And sad. I go back and forth between these mind states. A cancer treatment is tough.

    In the late afternoon, a friend drops by and we talk, and just as suddenly, I realize I am good again. We are such strange creatures. I can do this.

     While am napping on the living room couch my kind daughter waters the potted plants on the deck.

     In the morning, I stay out of the way of the cleaners as they move through the house. It takes them an hour and a half to do a job I cannot do. I watch the first episode of MURDERBOT on Apple plus.  Good books and good show. I prefer reading the books.