Sunday, May 18, 2025    

     I am afraid I am going to make a mistake and die.  Of course, I could and will make mistakes and of course I will die either now or later. It is so easy to label an action a mistake without knowing the big picture. Waiting and hurrying, both are potential mistakes. I can’t escape from making decisions. There is never enough information. This is the human condition. This week I will meet separately with the oncologist and then the urologist as I gather information about possible next steps in treatment. And I will spend time in the waiting rooms before the appointments.

     The two charming young adult grand daughters are in town this week.  We talk in my living room and then, they go walking on the beach.  The tall man is the chef in charge of meals.  A talented grandson is graduating from Tulane University in New Orleans. Another delightful grandson is traveling in Europe. And it is not even summer yet.

     Geoff Dyer is one of my favorite nonfiction writers. I am reading an earlier book called THE MISSING OF THE SOMME, a study of World War 1 by looking at cemeteries and memories of the war. Easier to read about this devastating war in this book.

     Of course, I first watch the news before I turn to a show.  Last night I watch episode 1 of THE CHELSEA DETECTIVE on Acorn. This is a keeper.