Saturday, October 26, 2024

     In the dark, lying in bed I can’t remember how to fall asleep. I try all my past tricks and prompts.  I turn on the light and read through the current New Yorker. I try out the beginnings of long articles. None capture my attention. I doze and then become alert over and over again until dawn.

     I am pretending to not care since I have already voted in this upcoming election. I am living in uncertainty both with my life and with the election. I continue to watching the news. I remind myself to be present each day and find a bit of joy in my life. I water the garden and take out the garbage.

     Walking through Target and checking out all the stuff was my goal during the COVID shut down times. My dreams are changing. As soon as I am well, I will drive myself to Moss Landing, sit in a chair and watch the marine life in the harbor.  Particularly pelicans and sea otters. These plans constantly evolve. I am curious to see what new idea arises.

     Great TV show last night. ROAD DIARY with Bruce Springsteen on HULU. I love the music and the sights of these old musicians working so hard. We are all working so hard.