Wednesday, May 3, 2023

In the evening I feel sad and confused. I should feel grateful that the immunotherapy is working against the cancer. Only 50 percent of the patients have a positive outcome.  The treatment will continue for the next two years. It all feels so unreal and I long for my former life.  The treatment damages my body. The cancer itself is abstract and unfelt. And there is a good chance the cancer will return.

This morning I am beginning to plan to become strong again.  More walking outside, errands and shopping, and going to the movies if a worthy one appears at the movie house.  I use to love writing at coffee houses.  Do they still exist? It is a start.

I have been watching D.I. RAY, a British detective series on Prime.  Only four episodes. I do recommend it to mystery story lovers.

One of my favorite nonfiction writers is Ted Conover.  His new book CHEAP LAND COLORADO is very good. He explores a rural part of Colorado in a way that makes it alive for me.