Wednesday, July 8, 2026

     I watch a series of facebook videos with babies and birds playing together. The baby’s laughter is contagious and I am suddenly feeling happy too.  I feel content being with trees outside but I am deliriously happy with delighted babies.

     It is 62 degrees in my bedroom this morning. My hands are cold, actually my whole body is cold.  But I am holding out to not turn on the heater. My roommate doesn’t say anything. It is summer, it is July.  The day will warm up, most likely.

     Our household pipes are draining this morning. All is well here.  I am getting supplies ready for the next crises. When my house is running smoothly, I forget about maintenance and chaos. Today I am having lunch with friends.

    Last night we settle down to eat our diners, and watch the documentary, ANDRE IS AN IDIOT, a comedy about a middle aged man dying from colon cancer. He lives three years from diagnosis to death. The message is to get your colonoscopy now, don’t wait. He makes jokes throughout the show. Funny, maybe, lots of sadness. I watch how he lives with difficult treatments and frailty until death. I am looking for role models for dying.