Thursday, February 5, 2026

     A blank page this morning. Ummm. I wake in the middle of the night worrying about my appointment with the oncologist Friday afternoon.  I tell friends and family that I am going by myself.  I am strong and capable. They have busy lives. But the fears in the middle of the night say something different. So I will accept help after all.

     I don’t do my chair yoga exercises on Wednesday.  I plan to, but then I don’t.  I am caught up in reading THERE ARE RIVERS IN THE SKY. I have some difficulty eating my lunch. I have an occasional lazy esophagus episode when I can’t swallow food. Runs in my family.

     All I want to do is sit in my blue recliner and read more chapters of this book.  I do walk outside to pick up three days of mail. I am strong and capable but sometimes I am pretending following the old adage, fake it until you make it. I am going to try a new one, be honest, trust yourself.

     We watch the new Spike Lee movie HIGHEST 2 LOWEST. I have difficulty fallowing the plot, and the images of New York City are fabulous. I want to visit New York again.