Monday, March 17, 2025

     Sometimes doubts arise and I worry about my cancer treatment. A mistake, maybe no cancer, a mistake, really the chemo is dangerous, not effective.  And I become sad. After a while I remember to review my medical records. Yes, there is cancer and yes, this is a reasonable treatment. And I can settle back into my day. And of course, living is uncertain.

     In the late afternoon I put on my orange puffer jacket and walk in the street. The strong wind is blowing in the trees. Water is seeping on to the pavement from the hillside. I water the dry potted plants under the eaves on the deck, I do my daily Physical Therapy exercises.

     For the first time in a NYTimes obituary I see death caused by complications of cancer treatment. Not the cancer but the treatments.

     I am still watching mostly Acorn streaming, detective shows from Australia and New Zealand.  Soon I am going back to MAX/HBO streaming.  I am waiting for the medical show PITT to complete its weekly drop of a new episodes.