Friday, January 10, 2025

     Deep in my mind I worry about having the right attitude or behavior with my cancer treatments. I try to be careful and accepting but still worry I am not doing it right. Which procedures should I question?  Will this lead to my death or maybe to life. There just is no sure answer.  I keep a hidden list of times I have fumbled and they have fumbled. I really don’t know how to keep sane during treatments.  And now is the time for the next treatment decisions.

     My daughter brings Chinese food for dinner and we watch an early movie. A REAL PAIN, a difficult movie to watch and really good.

     I am continuing to slowly read CREATION LAKE. Rachel Kushner is such an imaginative and excellent writer.

     Watching the fires in Los Angeles reminds me to be grateful I still have house insurance. I have complained about the doubling of cost this year. But no more complaints. I do not want my home to burn down.