Sunday, April 6, 2025      

     Yep I am scared. Hard to know which fear is the worst. The tariff battles, the government shut downs, Medicare and social security losses, cancer treatments. Should I start hoarding medications for the future. A World War two type victory garden? The fears come and go. Yes I have food, yes my heater works and the lights are on, the garbage is picked up weekly on time.  Is everything OK right now, just this minute?  Yes.  Sigh.

     I comfort myself with walking outside.  All my walking is slow. My personal librarian brings me library books, my family checks in on me and sometimes brings me cookies from Whole Foods. I keep medical appointments even when I am not sure they help.

     I am slowly reading through the pile of New Yorkers as more show up each week. We are safe if the mail still works and somebody in New York publishes the weekly magazine.

     I watch more episodes of RECIPES FOR LOVE AND MURDER in the evening. I lock the doors, turn off the lights and settle into my room to read another book.