Friday, February 10, 2023

Struggling with fatigue now.  I lay on the couch with my eyes closed, several times a day. This will pass and it is just a side effect of the immunotherapy. I am slowly aware of the difference between being sleepy and fatigue.

I talk to a human in Africa this morning as I cancel a subscription service of monthly vitamins.  Their website is too confusing.  Finally find a phone number and call. The young man is charming and efficient and the deed is done.  A couple of minutes later I receive the email canceling the service.  6,000 miles away and we are talking and smiling on the phone.

A sudden desire to buy something arises as I look at a Target. Ads. I don’t care what to buy, just something.  I haven’t been in a store for years. I scan the ads for stuffed animals, kitchen supplies, outdoor furniture, looking for anything to buy. Finally, I start playing online solitaire and the desire to shop retreats.

Thursday is warm enough.  I open the doors and windows to chase out the winter cold and let in spring air.  I have one more book by Henry Marsh to read. I am close to understanding how surgeons are trained and work. I have had four surgeries in the last 18 months.