Sunday, January 29, 2023

Fear arises slowly during the day. The sun is warming my home and then, the clouds blow in with the rain. The urinalysis report shows up on My Chart. I pick out the key words and check for information on google. And the reports are scary, and probably not accurate, but I take it all in and the fear arrives.  Come Monday I will learn the real story and a possible treatment plan.

At the end of the day, I am still in my flannel nightgown and sweat pants. I take out the trash and pick up mail and talk to people without putting on my daytime clothes, and this moment it was all OK.

I am still enamored with NEW AMSTERDAM, the medical drama on netflix.  I am in the middle of season 2. To watch the next three seasons, I have to go to Peacock and suffer through ads.

I am paying attention to the sounds of the birds outside.  I don’t have the words to describe the various sounds and I am here to learn. I have started reading the marvelous book THE BOOK OF MY LIVES by Aleksandar Hemon.  Thanks Anne for the recommendation.