Tuesday, November 29, 2022

There are parts of the body that are too private to talk about. The bladder is one. And yet the presence of a damaged bladder is paramount in my life now and if I am honest, I will talk about my bladder occasionally. This week I hope to learn if the BCG treatment worked against the cancer. The waiting is a difficult part of cancer treatment. I am told over and over again that there is no real cure for bladder cancer, just treatments.

I leave the string of colored lights on in the living room all night. The lights cheer me up even if I am not in the same room with them. In the morning I turn them off. The sun light then becomes my companion.

I had a package of frozen blueberries for my breakfast.  I microwaved a handful before adding them to my cereal.  The former teenager said they were really good frozen.  I try frozen blueberries in my cereal this morning and she is right.

I am in the middle of reading Bruce Chatwin’s novel, ON THE BLACK HILL. It is a slow carefully worded book and I am finally calm enough to enjoy it. I am working on my deep reading skills.