Tuesday, October 13, 2026

     The sun is out this morning but the house is really cold.  I am sitting in my chair covered with a blanket waiting for the sun to warm up the house. I still am reluctant to turn on my heater when in just a short time all the doors will be open to the warmth outside.

     I am ready for adventures. What does being healthy mean for me. Is 86 years old really too old, or am I just stuck in the role of the sick one. It is hard to tell if I just have low energy or scared to get out into the world.

     My former long term roommate and his partner visited on Saturday.  He is now a nurse. We never seem to run out of things to talk about, mostly medicine and work. My work is being a patient. His is to be a nurse.

    More TV watching in the evening. Finished EAST OF EDEN and THE MARBLE HALL MURDERS. We watch another episode of LUDWIG, my favorite funny show. No new books started, still in the middle of GHOST EYE. I couldn’t watch another news report from Rachel Maddow.  Too chipper and positive.  I want the news from Jon Stewart and Stephen Colbert. I want to see the outrageous humor in our bumbling president and his friends.

 

Monday, October 12, 2026

     The parched oak trees look tired and dry.  Long clusters of moss dangle from the limbs. Time for winter water to arrive. Swarms of moths circle the trees. Perhaps it is also time for the moth worm invasions.

     I dream that I am dying last night.  Now that I am awake and eating breakfast. I feel alive and doing well.

     I am not sure if today, Monday, is really a holiday.  Columbus Day is now called Indigenous Peoples’ Day. Luckily, I still trust google for information. Yep no mail today. In San Carlos Grammar school in the 1950’s. old Italian men, dressed like Christopher Columbus, would come into the classroom with the small paper ships filled with candy for each child. I still remember the three ships. The Nina, The Pinta, and the Santa Maria.

     I am watching EAST OF EDEN. At first I felt it was too melodramatic but now I am liking it. We also watch LANTERN, another series that takes time to like. And I also am reading GHOST EYE by Amitav Ghosh. No interesting news about the corrupt president.  We are all busy with voting season.

 

Sunday, October 11, 2026

     We mark our ballots yesterday afternoon. It isn’t as difficult as I expected. I review several sources, the democratic party recommendations and the Coast Weekly recommendations. We talk about the controversial issues. My roommates takes the ballots to the library ballot drop off box.

     I approach the many ballot propositions with a “no”.  Prove to me these are workable ideas and life enhancing plans. So I vote no frequently. And in the end, I am not sure I make the right choices.

     Yesterday, the pathology report shows up in My Chart before I hear anything from the doctor’s office.  It looks good to me although there is some ambiguity about certain cells being possible cancer. Ultimately the report says no cancer cells are found. I take the report as good news.

     I start reading the novel, GHOST EYE by Amitav Ghosh. So far it is working for me. We watch another episode of LUDWIG, my favorite comedy mystery show. I am disappointed with the MC NOW’s show TOGETHER IN TEXAS. Too political and too many commercials.  The corrupt president is so boring. The election should cut off his power a bit.