Monday, January 31, 2011

went to lunch with six friends today. We eat together frequently over the years. As we have gotten older we have had to speak up so we can hear each other. Some of us are limping and talking about our physical therapists. Some are talking about diabetic diets. When we move to non illness topics we have a great time. But sometimes the reality of our bodies aging is just too much. And talking is good.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Spent most of the day in a board meeting in a lovely house in Carmel Valley. Rain came down sporadically and then the sun would come out. At one point there was a double rainbow across the hills.

the meeting went well and we drove back in the late afternoon. We didn't make any decisions rather we got to know each other in a more complete way.

Now it is dark and I am looking for somthing enticing to read.

Saturday, January 29, 2011

I had this urge to just lie down on the coffee house floor and take a nap. I was talking with a friend and the sleepiness just crept up.

Oh to be a baby and sleep when the urge arises.

I was able to drive home and then lay on a real bed and sleep for an hour and a half.

Now I am awake.

Friday, January 28, 2011

It's allergy season. the acacia trees are blooming bright yellow and the pollen is covering everything. My brown car now has a greenish tint. I put out the box of Kleenex by my bed. My nose needs attention.

Fog came n this morning and cooled down the place.

Thursday, January 27, 2011

I am inspired to write a lament but I am not guite sure how to do it. A friend read his lament last week at the writers' circle and I was so moved by it. The difficulty is falling into whinning and complaining. That I can do well. but a lament is different. So I am working on it.

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

I have been going to the Sports Center diligently for the last several months. Riding the recumbent bike for 20 minutes and then doing a few more exercises.

Today was the first time that I was able to see that I actually knew some of the people. I saw though their sweaty clothes and determined look.

For so long they all looked like creatures from outer space but now I see they are my neighbors and friends.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

I didn't listen to the president's state of the union speech. I am tired of speeches. Instead I went to sit at the zen center in Carmel. The room was filled with people not listening to the president. Tomorrow I will read about it in the New York Times if I want to. I don't know.

Monday, January 24, 2011

My garbage started smelling so this morning I took the bags to the outside cans. Scott is gone for a week and he does so many invisible jobs that I am not aware of until he leaves. Tomorrow is garbage day.

I wonder what it would be like to not have garbage pick up, if I had to live with everything I bring into the house. Pretty scary.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Went to the mid afternoon movie at the Pacific Grove theater to see TRUE GRIT. The sun was shinning and it was warm but still I desperately wanted to be in the dark and watch the movie.

Me, my friend and about 8 other people were there. The rest were at the beach. The movie was good.

Now I am ready to go to the beach but it is dark.

Saturday, January 22, 2011

So the pain workshop went well. A warm sunny day, a good crowd and a wonderful speaker. After I was so tired, just went home and took a long nap and then a walk on the coast guard pier. A good day.

Friday, January 21, 2011

The moon shinned in my room all night dimming the stars.

Spent a lazy morning eating breakfast, reading, playing on the computer. Finally I got dressed and went to the sports center for my exercises. Then I had to come home and rest. Not such a bad day.

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Scott has gone to visit his father far a week and I am home alone. He always kept me neat. Knowing he was around I would pick up my things in the living room, do the dishes, fold the laundry, take out the newspapers. Now I keep thinking I am too tired, why do I have to do this. Tomorrow I will wash the dishes and put away the newspapers.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

I was invited to my grandson's 11th birthday dinner. They had lit up the long flight of stairs to make it easier for me to slowly climb. But their dog, this small tan terrier was blocking my way, barking and defending the stairs. I puffed myself up and tried to scare him back. He got bored and retreated.

I asked the family why they didn't come and rescue me. They hadn't heard the dog. Now I have to worry about the stairs and the doggy when I come to visit.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

While going to the bank this morning I saw a disheveled man walking along the sidewalk and stopping to pick up cigarette butts and puting them in his pocket. Sometimes he would step into the gutter close ot the zooming cars to pick up a butt. I felt very sad watching this.

The tulip tree down the street is just beginning to bloom along with the acacia trees. The sun is out.

Monday, January 17, 2011

My Physical Therapist has given me some new harder exercises and now my legs are sore again. But this time it is a useful sore as I work on developing more muscles.

I tried to watch TV tonight but I could find anything interesting. I wonder what other people watch besides the news.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Saw the KING'S SPEECH this afternoon. A wonderful upbeat story. this was a good antidote for BLUE VALENTINE which I found so sad. The KING'S SPEECH was about courage and intimacy between friends. the theater was filled and people left happy.
Went to see BLUE VALENTINE last night at the Osio. It was so sad to see this young couple struggle and fight as their marriage failed. It may have been a good movie but I couldn't tell because I was caught by their pain.

The movie I did like was THE KINGS SPEECH. It was a story abut trust and friendship. Maybe I am just not interested in romance.

Friday, January 14, 2011

I now get to take 15 minute wlks every other day. I spend hours deciding where to take this delicious walk. Today I walked down wharf #2. I tried to walk effortlessly but instead I was awkward, But I am working on the effortless part. The sun was out, birds, sky, wet sand. What more could I ask for.

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Went to my book group and had a fabulous dinner. We actually did talk about books. Sometimes we are too busy to talk about books but tonight we all had something to say.

It was deeply foggy on the drive back from Marina. Now in my bedroom I can hear the fog horn blaring.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Took the kids to the park after school to run around. I saw a little boy riding a tiny bike. It took me a few minutes to realize there were no pedals. He had his feet on the ground running with the bike, He was fast and having great fun. I think it was a European toy.

My kids showed me the new game they learned in school. You run and scream at the same time until you are out of breath. They showed it to ms a couple of times.

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

rainy cold day. The cold would not stop. Met friend at the Coast guard deli to test out for Plein Air writing. Almost no customers at 9:30 am. wonderful view of the harbor so it is a go. We will schedule an event there.

I really want to find someone who can get us in to the Cypress club in Pebble Beach or the Old Capital club in Monterey. I will keep asking everyone I know.

Monday, January 10, 2011

Went to Physical therapy this afternoon. Monday afternoon regular appointment. I am down to one appointment a week. I can now walk 15 minutes every other day, up from 5 minute walks. I can hardly wait.

Cold windy day, never did warm up even thought the sun was out.

Sunday, January 9, 2011


The Arizona shooting has cast a spell on me. It is all so sad to see this ind shooting. I want to climb in bed and pull the blanket over my head.

Instead I park on Wharf #2 in the late afternoon and watch the City's fire boat practice wirh their water hose trying to drown a buoy near the wharf. The buoy won and refused to go under. The fireman got lots of practice with his aim. Finally the boat left. I was rooting for the buoy.

Saturday, January 8, 2011

Went to Macy's to buy some sheets on sale. I haven't walked through that store for several years. All the shinny baubles. I wanted to buy lots of stuff but just focused on the flannel sheets. I came home with two sets of twin sheets and pillow cases

I received nine pennies in change and hid them behind a card on the counter. I don't need more pennies. I already have a jar filled with pennies on my desk. But I do need sheets.

Friday, January 7, 2011

My daughter had worked on the film HOWL and recommended it. So tonight I watched it on netflix DVD. It was intense, lots of beautiful graphics, not much plot but lots of slice of life. I recommend it also.

Thursday, January 6, 2011

the two grammar school kids came over after school today. All they wanted to do was sit on comfortable chairs and continue to read their books. I fixed a snack of sliced pear and peanut butter toast and we continued to read our books for two hours. they then went home with their mother.
My house is empty except for me. I am going through withdrawal. I park on the wharf at dusk and watch the birds and families on the beach. A large flock of soldiers run along the recreation trail, dozens and dozen, running smoothly without any effort. I wonder if they know how lucky they are to be able to run.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

We had our first sunny day in weeks. Drove down to Nepenthe for lunch on the terrace. The ocean was calm and the whales were migrating in front of us.

Also there was a slow moving blimp cruising up the coast. We all wondered why it was here at this time. There were no big sports events we could think of.

Came home and took a nap.

Monday, January 3, 2011

This morning before dawn I stoped at the post office to check my mail box. A firetruck was just pulling up and then a police car and and ambulence. A homeless man was slumped on a bench near the entrance. I watched for a moment as the first responders began to talk with this man and check him out. It was 40 degrees cold. I hope they took him to a warm place.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

My friend Dina has been reading May Sarton's JOURNAL OF A SOLITUDE. I read this book many years ago. so Now I am reading it again with fresh eyes. I am enjoying it.

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Jojo and I drove around town thids morning looking for an open grocwery store. First we stopped at Peets for coffee. Trader Joes was closed but Whole foods was open and filled with New Years Day shoppers. We picked up food for our lunch guests and went home to prepare it. Luckily Jojo is a great cook. I helped clean up after the lunch.