Sunday, February 28, 2010

A person I have known for a long time is dying. I feel so helpless in this situation. Death is such a foreign country to me and death will happen to me also.

Saturday, February 27, 2010

Spent time listening to a talk I was not interested in. Noticed that the newly refinished wood floor at the Cherry Center is deeply scratched. Started planning ways to fix it. Long morning.

Friday, February 26, 2010

I was assigned to give a ten minute talk at the noon time zen sitting today. I had two talks prepared, one on sex scandals and one on crows in my neighborhood.

Everyone wanted the sex scandals so the crows will be for another day. What can you say in ten minutes, that is the question.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Two unkempt bulky men were blocking traffic at Whole foods. Walking slowly, looking at people. they looked at me and I shivered and made sure my car door was locked.

They started walking towards me and I shook my head no. I was not willing to give them money.

They stopped, turned around and started moving to the edge of the parking lot.

When I left the store they were gone.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

My fingers are sticky with cashews and glue. I am just finishing the monthly mailing for the zen center.

No one says I have to do this but I have convinced myself that it is useful to the life of the community.

So now I have a big paper bag filled with sealed envelops.

I will drop them off on the way ot lunch with friends.

The post office must love me.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

A friend and I go to Earthbound Farm Center to write and drink coffee. But it is cold and rainy.

We are planning for our plein air writing class that starts next Tuesday.

We then go to the Cherry Center where we are warm and protected from the rain.

Much better.

I hope the rain stops by next Tuesday.

Monday, February 22, 2010

Did errands most of the day while listening to friends tell me sad stories. Now I want to hear some happy stories. Surely someone is happy out there.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

The waitress said to me as she was clearing my plate, Don't you like sour cream? You left it on your plate. You always leave it on your plate.

Always? I respond.
Yes, we have noticed and have been wondering about it.

I couldn't think of anything else to say. I am not as invisible as I thought.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

I took the day off today. We used to call this the thirty six hour rest cure, cancel everything, stay in your jammies, nap and eat and read a good mystery story. I have just discovered Elizabeth George and so today I lay on my couch and read until the surprising end.

The rest cure ends tomorrow morning, I will be ready to do the next thing. Already I feel better.

Friday, February 19, 2010

So I have been working on a sewing project for the last couple of days. When I looked at it closely I realized I had done it wrong. it took almost as much time to take out the stitches as to put them in. Ugh!

Thursday, February 18, 2010

I am working hard to stay awake. I know it is only 8pm but I have been up since 5am and now I just want to go to bed.

I do better if I can find a way to stay up at least until 9:30 so I am looking for some good TV series to watch. My current favorite is the Good Wife.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Warm sunny afternoon. A loud siren starts out with others following. The fire house down the street is rushing around away from my house, from my neighborhood. Some unknown emergency.

Now that we have inadequate newspapers I will never know what is happening. I know more about New York then do about Monterey.

I wonder what news source will arise for us local folks.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

This morning I turned my heater on in my car to push out the cold. Cold foggy morning. But by noon, the sun was out and I had just eaten a cheese enchilada and my car had been sitting in the sun.

I turned on the air conditioner, the first time this year.

Sometimes I am hot and sometimes I am cold but not usually in the same day.

Monday, February 15, 2010

Several times today I saw pedestrians walking and talking on their cell phones and walking right into the street without even looking. I am resisting yelling at them and I am being careful not to hit these oblivious walkers.

What is this world coming to?

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Drove to Nepenthe for lunch with my sister and granddaughter. The food was mediocre but the view, sun and conversation was great.

Now I am tired and want to just watch TV.

Saturday, February 13, 2010

This morning a flock of mourning doves is working the neighborhood. Jumping, dunking, gliding from bush to puddle to tree to grass.

The wet morning is glistening and renewed.

Worms days are finally arriving.

Friday, February 12, 2010

I'm just settling down in my chair to watch the opening of the winter Olympics on TV.

I love watching snow sports. I miss going skying at Badger Pass in Yosemite.

Is anyone else watching?

Thursday, February 11, 2010

In the early morning before dawn I stop at the post office to check our mail box. I love walking into the warm empty room.

There is a homeless man who has found shelter from the rain just outside the door. It is so cold outside.

My car hasn't warmed up enough for the heat to come on but the post office is toasty.

I take Several pieces of mail back to my car to read later.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

After I parked my car and crossed the street a middle aged man in a red sports car slowed down by me and yelled ASS HOLE, YOU SHOULD LOOK WHERE YOU ARE GOING. I wondered who he was talking to.

Me .

Then I wondered what I did to make him so angry. I just don't know. I wish he had informed me of what I did wrong so I could correct it. All I heard was his rage.

Monday, February 8, 2010

In the dark just before dawn I was waling in the Cherry Center Sculpture garden. I could start to see the green grass and the trees and then I saw a variety of mushrooms popping up in the leafy loom.

They were like visitors form outer space.

I will have to go in the daytime and see what it was that I saw.

Sunday, February 7, 2010

It rained on and off all day. I was diligently working on a sewing project, marking and cutting and pinning. I think it will never be done, endless toil.

I did skip out in the afternoon to go to the movies. Saw the CREATION about Charles Darwin.

I liked it. and then I came home and did some more sewing.

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Took the two young kids and a stack of old computers, printers and DVD players to the local dump in Marina.

We spent time at the Last Chance Mercantile to look over stuff we might want to buy. For $2.50 we bout a wine glass, a mug and various defunct stuff that was intriguing to the boy.

We all went away satisfied with our morning's work.

Friday, February 5, 2010

At Whole Foods parking lot I walk between the parked cars to get to the front entrance. Always I am on the look out for dogs left in cars who will bark and lunge at me as I walk by.

I watch for the car window that is slightly open.

Today I arrived at the front entrance unbitten and un barked. I count that as a victory.

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Driving to the coffee house in Carmel this morning I was struck by the name of one of the main streets. Lincoln. Named after our wonderful president and now has become just a name on a street sign. This street goes through residential and commercial sections of town.

Maybe I am getting too sensitive as I continue to read about Lincoln's life. I love the Lincoln memorial but I am not sure about Lincoln street in Carmel..

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

An unexpected balmy day today. I sat outside in the sun in the afternoon reading A TEAM OF RIVAL by Doris Kearns Goodwin. A study oft Abraham Lincoln's time.

The book reminds me that each time in history had it's own problems. We are not the only generation that feels desperate about the world situation.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

I watched the first two episodes of 24 hours, the first season. I got the disk from netflic. I had heard so much about the series and it was compelling but it left such a terrible after taste of violence and distrust that I sent the unfinished dvd back. I wonder what everyone liked about it.