Sunday, October 11, 2026

     We mark our ballots yesterday afternoon. It isn’t as difficult as I expected. I review several sources, the democratic party recommendations and the Coast Weekly recommendations. We talk about the controversial issues. My roommates takes the ballots to the library ballot drop off box.

     I approach the many ballot propositions with a “no”.  Prove to me these are workable ideas and life enhancing plans. So I vote no frequently. And in the end, I am not sure I make the right choices.

     Yesterday, the pathology report shows up in My Chart before I hear anything from the doctor’s office.  It looks good to me although there is some ambiguity about certain cells being possible cancer. Ultimately the report says no cancer cells are found. I take the report as good news.

     I start reading the novel, GHOST EYE by Amitav Ghosh. So far it is working for me. We watch another episode of LUDWIG, my favorite comedy mystery show. I am disappointed with the MC NOW’s show TOGETHER IN TEXAS. Too political and too many commercials.  The corrupt president is so boring. The election should cut off his power a bit.

 

Saturday, October 10, 2026

     It is true, if I am very tired, too tired at bedtime I can’t fall asleep.  I need to be rested to sleep well. a paradox. Friday is a full exciting day and I struggle with falling asleep. Being with the gang at Brown Bag Zen is exciting. I come home and lay on the couch for the usual daytime nap.  I can not fall asleep. This morning, I am good.

      We talk about the high price of gas for the car.  Fortunately, I only need gas twice a year. I live mostly at home. Being old and tired has its compensations.

     Fog hung around all day and in the evening, I thought of turning on the heater.  Instead, I put on warmer clothes. I tell the heater, soon, soon I will need your help.

     In the evening, my roommate and I watch more of LUDWIG and LANTERN. A satisfying combination. We are tired and not talkative. Tonight, I am looking forward to watching Rachel Maddow and her gang in Texas. Starts at 5 pacific time. On MS NOW. I am patiently waiting for the legal consequences for the President’s corrupt team. I support jail terms. It is voting time.

 

Friday, October 9, 2026

     Today is the talk at Brown Bag Zen.  So yesterday my busy mind keeps finding stories to tell. It is only a 15 minute talk, but most of the day I am trying out different themes. I am leaning towards talking about my three month Tassajara retreat in 1995. I remind myself the most interesting talks are not overly rehearsed. Yes I am nervous.

     Lots of little birds in the Bottle Bush trees this morning. I wonder when they will discover the berry tree. Maybe the berries aren’t ripe enough.  Hard for me to tell.  They are bright red and are thick in the bush.

     My friend does a library run for me. Still, I have too many books I can’t possibly read. My desire for books is becoming untenable. These are books put on hold by me. I wonder if it is related to the uncertainty of living with cancer treatments.  I have more control over library books then with cancer treatments.

     My roommate is busy working on her computer and cell phone while I am reading books. In the evening, we watch another funny episode of THE DAILY SHOW, this time with Gorden Klepper. And then we watch an episode of LANTERN. This show has turned very violent and difficult to watch.  My favorite show is season two of LUDWIG. I like watching the news of the corrupt president’s failures in court cases. Good legal news is with Ari Melbur on MS NOW, THE BEAT,