Friday, February 27, 2026 

     The day warmed up, almost too warm.  This morning, it is fog time, cool overcast sky. I am struggling with what to write about, what is really going on with me. I am waiting for the results from the Wednesday CAT scan. I tell myself that I don’t care, I am feeling healthy.  Deep down I am scared.  This can go on for days with no report. Sigh.

      The other problem for me is that I am engrossed in the life of the characters in THE LONELINESS OF SONIA AND SUNNY.  All I want to do is get back to my recliner and read more chapters.  A long book, dense with atmosphere and life.  My life starts feeling thin and shallow compared to their lives.

     And yet two wonderful friends came and visited with me.  Wonderful conversations, people I have known and loved for decades. One knitted me a red hat for protests.  I have given each of them whistles so they too can protect our communities. Life is good and life is scary.

     We watch two an episode from two different series, THE PITT and LINCOLN LAWYER. Both intense episodes bringing tears to my eyes. Well, today is a new day.

 

Thursday, February 26, 2026

     I am afraid of curbs. Parking my car next to the curb means I have to hold on to my cane and the car to step up to the side walk, and not fall. Not falling is the main task. Time to see what exercises Google has to improve my curb climbing skills.

     The scheduled CAT scan at the Pacific Cancer Center goes really well. A new clinic, bright, competent staff and quick.  Don’t have to remove my clothes and put on clinic gown. This is part of my cancer surveillance plan. Now waiting for the results. I do feel strong and healthy.

     I watch the first episode of THE PUZZLE LADY, a PBS show. I like it maybe.  A bit fussy, set in England with predictable characters. Most likely I will continue. Then we watch another episode of LINCOLN LAWYER. Endless problems for the crew.

     I am totally engrossed with THE LONELINESS OF SONIA AND SUNNY by Kiren Desai. I am glad it is long and complicated.

 

Wednesday, February 25, 2026

     I am in the bathroom.  I hear the footsteps coming up to the door and then retreating. It is another package delivery but no it is the building inspector.  I received a message from the heating company. The inspector came and left.  He could come back.  I sit in the living room reviewing the technical documents for the new heater. Waiting for him becomes agony. I am afraid. I have become afraid of the government.

     The front door is open.  The inspector arrives. I am home and waiting. He says your door bell doesn’t work. I stay silent. I give him the papers and he goes to the basement to check the heater.  Five minutes, he is done, signs off on the permit and leaves. It takes hours for me to calm down. I don’t know what I was expecting. I am afraid of being forced out of my home.

      I watch the political show with the president.  I don’t need to listen to the journalists to know how crazy he is. Crazy and somewhat charming. He lies so well. He is good for a TV show but in real life he is a disaster. He threatens our survival as a functioning nation.

     I continue to read THE LONELINESS OF SONIA AND SUNNY by Kiran Desai. Such a good book.  I will have to look at her other books in the future.